Sayangss :D

From left : Me , Mardhiah , Nabilah

 Meet us ! I don't know
what else to write so I'm introducing my 'husband' and 'madu'. Mehehehe #gedikgila Well, I just met them in University this year but we've gotten really close to each other. I have to say I like joking around with them. Mardhiah is the one always being funny and weird. Nabilah's more to a matured attitude
with a hint of cheekiness. They're really fun to hang around with (:

 This baby here on my lap is Ivy. She's my 'madu' too and with her around, it makes four of us a whole. She's very cute and fun to chit chat with. To top it up she's a honey and always being funny. See how it rhymes? lol (:

Okay so here it goes, I love this people so very much and even if we've only gotten to know each other for a short while, we've been through a lot together. Assignments, hang outs, troubles and such. A few months can be quite a memory for me being around them. When I cry, these people are the ones who would comfort me because I'm nowhere near my family. They make me feel like things are going to work out fine. They make me smile at every second a day no matter how rough things had been. I spend the morning till evening with all four of them and the nights with Madee and Ivy as Nabilah's not staying in college. We hung around each other

almost 24/7 so even if it was only a few months yet we know one other's life better. We share all the secrets together whether it is embarassing , bad or vice versa. We built our friendship with sincerity and no matter what we are in person, we always have each other's back and not let the other go down alone (: I love you guys and yes, I miss you so much. I hope that even if we're not in the same class next semester we can always stick like how we did for these past few months. Please? I can't see myself not being close to all of you this new semester. Sad actually and I pray that we can be in the same class. If not, I wish we could spend time together after classes are over :D 

 

Whatever it is, once a friend we stay friends , okay babies? :DD

Don't Assume Please (:

 The picture speaks for itself. Humans are so annoying because at 1st impression they tend to judge. See, our brains function to detect people's attitude , appearance and what not  and there comes 1st impressions. Well, the impressions we get at 1st sight may or may not be true. In my point of view, judging someone after getting to know them for a short while always mislead us to certain things. Observing someone by the way they dress up , talk , walk or whatsoever is a bad way to find out how they actually are in person. I sometimes do that too so I'm writing this to remind myself not to jump into conclusions just by seeing how someone appears to look like. I don't know why but I just hate it when people judge without knowing the truth or the story behind every action a person does. Seriously man, don't be so paranoia with things around you. A guy may appear all good-looking and gentleman but deep down he can be such a pain-in-the-butt jerk. A girl can be so flawless and dreamy but she might be a stuck-up-b***h somewhere so it's obvious that judgements on the outer personality is so wrong. Why not try making conversations and get to know them better then you can have the rights to judge. I know this because in life, I've encountered so many people who just judge from what they see without having the heart to know what the actual reason is behind every action done. I feel terrible on behalf of them for what they've been missing. Who knows the person they hate all this while could've been the best friend a person could ask for. Pity. So please, whatever it is try seeking for an explanation for a better glimpse of what someone is like. Don't be a hater because no hate is going to bring you satisfaction instead it'll only make you feel insecure about yourself. True. Hmm..I wonder how many relationships could have been saved, how many farce relationships unshackled, how many business deals might have been clinched, how many frauds could have been averted, if we were never equipped with this human-instinct of judging people from appearances! Lol. Who knows, right? Nobody. You do get me however that just don't be so judging on what appears to the naked eye because at times, only the heart speaks and knowing someone by the heart brings more joy and understanding rather than outer appearance (: Note that one can pretend to be someone one is not and vice versa. Life is full of adventures so enjoy experiencing them while you can and make the best out of it. Don't fill yourself with hatred because no fun will ever comes out of it :3

Goodbyes are Hard :'(

 

 Haha. Cliche? Yepp, righteous. Life is all about things making their way until people are tired and gotten used to it. Why oh why do we have weaknesses? I don't know, people say it's life. It spices things up for us sometimes. I'm writing this more to a personal basis. I once have a friend who was everything to me. If you're reading this, good because I'm sick of keeping it to myself. I hate you. However, tell you this, the opposite of love is not hate but it's indifference because if you hate someone so much, you still care yet indifference shows that the person means nothing to you but just a stranger you never knew. So, I do care about you just I can't bear the fact that you treated me like I'm a doll. Play with me when you're bored and set me aside when you got other things to get busy with. Seriously. It just crossed my mind that why am I still waiting when you don't even care. I have to learn to let go, not now but one day. Now, I just need to tell you this.. Thank You. You've been my strength for some time now. I would've broken down and lose the fight but knowing that you were there, I took the courage to get back up. I needed you and you were always there to help. I remembered getting myself stuck in a conflict and I ended up calling you to ease things up. It's easy to open up to you because I trusted you. See how much I relied on you before? You were once my strength but now you've become my weakness. Things change in just a blink of an eye. I cried to myself a lot of time and every time I shed tears, I promised myself to remember that you were the cause of my pain. You are the reason for me not having any trust to anyone anymore. For once I gave my whole trust to someone I was hoping would appreciate it instead that someone crushed them to pieces. I guess I was wrong to trust you from the beginning so I deserved it. I am grateful that you came into my life and walked out because you gave me a glimpse of what life is all about and a new perspective in it.I miss you. Believe me but I know one thing for sure, if I am brave enough to say 'Good Bye' life will reward me with a new 'Hello'. I give you my word I'll find the strength to say it one day. Yes, I will (:

Nobody Is Weak

"I look into your eyes, all I see is deep down you want to cry". 

Have you ever felt that way every time you look into a mirror? I do,sometimes. Emotional? Yes, soOo me :3  Well, I've read somewhere that to gain strength is to breakdown. Without breaking, no one would actually learn how to get up no matter what sex you are,male or female. Guys who cry aren't sissy or gay, obviously. A single drop of a tear a guy shed brings thousand of meanings and proves how manly he is to not be afraid to show his weaknesses. You do know that not many are brave enough to show how weak and breakable they are inside,right? Typical. I've met tonnes of people who act that way and I don't blame them because nobody would want to feel insecure. I admit I tend to do that most of the times. I show people how strong I am or can be , trying my best that I can live a simple happy life but.. NO! There are just things that would always make me cry and I have my own weaknesses. The person who always come out strong and seems to always have control of oneself would be the one in most need of a hug. Though, there is nothing to be ashamed of about being weak and vulnerable. It is part of us being human.  Insecurities make one wants to improve oneself and see past the imperfections thus, giving out one's inner strength. It is a balance cycle don't you think? (: So whatever it is just don't be all scared to feel weak, look on the bright side, after the rain is over you'll see colors of a rainbow and at the end of a rainbow there will be a pot of gold. It applies the same here, at the end of your weaknesses, you will find the reason to be strong. Falling is a challenge for one to stand back up and risk to take the first step even how hurtful one knows it could be. However, the reward is always worth the pain. Learn that life is never to wait for the storm to pass but to enjoy dancing in the rain 

 

Wishing Is Normal :pp

Teddies!! Oh , I'm a sucker when it comes to teddy bears #truefact . I ell oo vee ee teddies that I can go crazy if you bring me to a place full of teddies. I would rather stay there and look at them all day. Mehehehe. Crazy much? I know. Well, I have some things in my wishlist that I want to put it down in words. Wishlist : #1. I want a teddy so big that I would feel tiny looking at it. Impossible? Well, it is a wish so adding a hint of impossibility won't hurt. Haha! Okay seriously, teddies make my day. I sleep with teddies, I like hugging them. So cuddly and adorable. Nuff said. #2. I want to scream out my lungs on a mountain or at least a cliff. I don't know why but it sounds fun. Don't you think so? #3. I want to do a bungee jump and sky diving. Extreme sports aren't to my liking but yes, I would love to try that. It's part of me being able to fly even for just a little while. That's the fun in it. #4. A date on a hot air balloon. Don't care if it's a date with a friend or a special friend as long as it's a hot air balloon. It's like you would be the only ones around and having the time alone. It's a moment to forget everything I'm going through and just enjoy the scenery. #5. I wish to sit and spend time in a meadow with someone I care so much one whole day. I know it sounds so cliche but I am just an average girl. Simple things can mean so much to me sometimes and I would treasure even the smallest effort someone does for me. Hee. Cheeky , yes I do realize that. Who cares as long as I'm happy and it is MY wishlist, right. :DD Bambambammm ..

Do You?

Yes, I still keep them. I want to throw them away so badly but every time I look at it, I just don't have the heart to do so. Reading them bring back memories that I don't even want to remember, believe me. Now, I keep them in a box and try the hardest to not glimpse at it even for a minute. I don't know if you remember but I do. Every details of what I've written to you once. Why is it so hard to let go? I don't know. It's just that each time I feel like giving up, I think of the reason why I held on in the 1st place. Fortunately, I've realized that some things or people are meant to stay only in my heart but they don't have a place in my life anymore. I do feel grateful that at some point I used to be the reason behind your smile. I let myself become a prisoner to the memories and never wanted to let go. No worries, I am going to let go now that I understand life never gives what we want. It gives only what we need. That's why it is called life. Unpredictable moments come and go never leaving a sign  D:

Don't Have One? I'll Give You Mine (:

:D weeeeee.. S.M.I.L.E ! Do you do that often? Well, I've read that smiling has its very own benefits. I know sometimes we don't smile and even if we do at times it is going to come out fake. Yeah, I know that because I do that a lot too. Mehehehee. But here, I'm just saying that smiling is a good thing especially when we feel stressed out (:

Reasons for us to smile?? Bambambammm...smiling is a cute expression so when you do this -- (:

People just feel attracted instantaneously. Trust me! Also, it makes you look slightly younger rather than having a frown on your face. It lifts up your muscle so you will always look radiant . Smiling is contagious.When someone is smiling they lighten up the room, change the moods of others, and make things happier. A smiling person brings happiness with them. Smile lots and you will draw people to you. So, smile to a guy, he'll be addicted to you. LOL. If you are facing problems, smile. It relieves your stress and heals your headache. Whenever you feel gloomy or sad, curve up your lips and again, smile. You would be surprise at how much magic it has to change your mood (: Sometimes, when you look at how lucky people are and you wish to be like them, smile. When you do that, you are most likely to have a positive mindset and everything will workout fine your way. Successful people love to smile because they are happy with what they have achieved. Why not? I mean even if we are ordinary people, just smile and be proud that you've succeeded to live your life until now :DD 

Other facts, well smiling is proven scientifically to be a healthy lifestyle. Studies have shown that smiling releases endorphins, natural pain killers, and serotonin. Together these three make us feel good. Smiling is a natural drug. Wow! When you smile, there is a measurable reduction in your blood pressure. Give it a try if you have a blood pressure monitor at home. Sit for a few minutes, take a reading. Then smile for a minute and take another reading while still smiling. Tell me if you spot any difference. Smiling helps the immune system to work better. When you smile, immune function improves possibly because you are more relaxed thus it prevents the flu and colds.