One Night Stand With Le Babies :D

Last Days before Asasi Ends ! One night stand with my sayangs and roommates <3 Tutti frutti, Lawang Sari Cafe, Hotel, Midnight Movie (SAW5) We're awesome liddat because I had fun spending my days with them and that was one of my best nights ever !! The next morning we had roti canai in bed and cam whored before checking out ;D

My Lovely Sayangs and Roommates <3

The Devils at the back :3

Bullies. I'm the innocent victim. ALWAYS!

Sorry but we have ugly faces >.<

The terror of my mulut ikan :O HAHA

One DECENT picture for all to see (:

I miss you all so much. Nieyna who is always the emotional person in the room, looking after me and helping me buy food *that explains my weight* Bubu who is always corrupting my mind with Korean Dramas and such, listening to my non-stop babbling of nonsense *the bully* Mardhiah and Ivy who are always there to make my days and help me move on <3 I loooveee you weird, ugly-faced*includes me* people so much!

A Day Out To Treasure !

A day out with my bitches, Madee, Sara, Hazreen, Rose ;D Sunway Pyramid. We planned to go skating somehow ended up watching The Vow which they planned on crying but no tears came out *sigh Window shopped the whole day which was frustrating enough for me. Too many things that caught my eyes but I was not able to spend for I am sadly POKAI, yes I am :'( No matter what, we had fun !!

Comel lah tuu Rose?

When cheekiness takes over :3

They made my days a whole lot better ;D I love them no matter how far we separate after this, be sure to stay friends and remember what we had as a memory of our friendship (:

Group C peeps, I love you all to the deepest core of my heart ! <3

A Small Glimpse of Things Around ((:

Assalamualaikum (: It's been a while now since I updated my blog. Nothing much to say. Nothing. I'm almost done with my Foundation Programme and as much as I'm excited about it, I'm sad too. Well, to think that I'm going to part with my close friends here, sucks! I can't believe that I'm done with one small step in my life and moving on to the next. Guess I'm just going to share some photos of my memories here with them ;

                                   

                                                        

           

                                                 

    

                                  

Everything is just so precious in helping me write my own life story. Hatred or love, it doesn't matter because all these actually plays a role in shaping me to become who I am now (: There are more photos to describe the memories I have here but only a few that I publicize. Once a memory, let it live if not in our eyes at least in our mind ;D The little things we get makes up a bigger reward in the future. Mine is the new course and friendship in life. Thank You All for making it more colourful !!

Just A Reflection (:

 Hi there. It's been a while since I posted something eh. Well, now I'm writing most of my feelings in a book where no one can read it. I need privacy once in a while. So, what to write here I have no idea but I'm going to try anyways. Have you ever heard of something called wherever or whatever it is, do it with your most effort and never regret? Sure you did eh. That's what I feel like talking about here now. I can't help it but to just accept things the way it is. I mean, whatever I do it does not matter because everything I do I know I've given my best effort and if it's a failure the least is I've tried, right? I don't know why but I'm just accepting everything that's happening to me now. It's not awesome obviously but it's meant to be so why run when I can always face it. It hurts me sometimes but it is okay. I've learned to take things as it is and experience makes me a little bit more stronger. I don't hate the fact that I have to go through all this but I appreciate it because it shows that God is giving me something to ponder about and all this is because I need to learn from it. Take it as a lesson. Once, I thought losing someone was a punishment but now how thankful I am because it taught me that in life you might lose precious people or things and all you got to do is to continue living and not give up. It also means it is a challenge and not to show how weak you can be instead to fight your way up and prove how strong it makes you. I believe that if it wasn't for all this pain, I wouldn't even mature or think positively. I might still be living in my own dreamworld where everything goes according to what I want. My life would be scripted. Now that there's a challenge, I am taking another route which I don't even know where it's going to lead me. When nothing goes right, go left. Never rely on one thing but always plan another. If plan A doesn't work out, you have another 25 alphabets to go with so never give up. At the end of the route, you'll find something worth it. All it takes are time ,effort and patience. You sometimes deserve better but you just do not realize it. One mistake is not the end neither is one lost but giving up is what makes it an ending in life (: So, I guess that is what I'm going to do for now. Life is all about making the best out of it and being creative not dull :D

Just A Day

 Dear blog, you've been a good companion and a loyal listener (: I thank you for that and I won't ask more of you only to just need you to stay the same. I've no idea what to write now but I still feel like writing and here it goes. Hmm, yesterday's okay and I did basically nothing apart from just sitting around at home in front of my laptop. Boring life? You tell me. So, I've been listening to this one video with three songs since morning up till now as in the whole day. I have no clue why am I so addicted to it but one thing's for sure is that I kept on pressing the replay button. Freaky, I can see that. It's just that there's too much in my mind and I need to tune it all down so I helped myself by listening to these songs. I don't even know what's right and what's wrong now. I need to talk to someone but I couldn't because I don't know how to explain things. I met my best friend today afternoon and I needed her so badly! I mean I need someone to tell me that I'm sane and whatever I'm doing is the right thing. If it's not the right thing, at least someone to tell me how to fix things. The whole day, I was able to hide my actual feelings but not now because I can't sleep. Please, I hope everything goes okay and I can actually forget things that I don't want to remember. I hoped that being with friends just now can actually make me let loose of myself and be more positive. I'm going to send a silent prayer so that what I hope will come true. Amin (: It was nice too despite all of the gloomy emotions I'm feeling, I admit that I did have some nice time. Thanks to some, I guess. That's all I'm telling. I had an up and down day but I'm still breathing and continuing my life hoping for a better outcome in the upcoming days :DD

Moving On , I Hope (:

 SMILE pleaseee. Okay , I just want to make a point that I'm happy? Haha. No, it's just that I've come clean about my feelings to someone and pheww no more guilt now. Maybe a little bit of awkwardness but at least both of us would feel it instead of me alone which definitely will suck. I don't expect much because I'm tired of expecting so I'm just going to go with the flow. If it's working then (: but if it doesn't, I'll just take it as it is. I know all this while I've been talking about moving on, right? The truth is I've never planned on moving on, not at all. It's just me trying to convince myself that I am capable of moving on but I don't even have the strength for it. Amazing that all of a sudden, I am taking one step ahead of my past which I've held on for so long now. I don't plan to be having this feeling for anyone and by that I mean I don't easily have feelings for people but now here I am acting like this. *cuckoo* I don't even know if this is a right thing whether it is a good feeling or not. Seriously, I've given up. Then , when I went out with this person, for the 1st time I felt comfortable and easy. I don't feel that way with guys even if I've lots of guy friends, I don't put myself in a comfy state if I'm around them. This time, it just feels different for me. It's not the face, not the style but it's more to me feeling relaxed and not try so hard to be normal. Weird? You got that right. I don't even get me or what I'm talking about right now. HAHA. Whatever it is, I'm thankful for this because I am definitely moving on and this feeling I'm having helps a lot. I don't know if the person would feel the same way and as much as I know this feeling is wrong, I still am grateful despite what the outcomes might be. Thank you :D Sorry for the heads up. I'm not close to being a perfect someone but at times , I've figured out that happiness is yours only once you see past all the imperfections. No one can have what they want but they will get only what they need and that's life. I know that things usually falls apart so that other things will fall together so I'm taking my life that way. It had been broken once in the past but now I'm trying to fix it so new memories will fill in the old ones and best if it can replace them (:

I don't know :(

 " I just don't know if I can do it anymore. "

" Get close to somebody , just to push them away and watch them leave, again! "

Yes. I've been through that. I admit I used to be the one leaving but when I was the one left, I understood how much it hurts especially when the person who left you was the one you cared the most. People say you won't feel until you've been hit at least once. So there goes my lucky hit and it made me 'feel' for quite some time. I changed after that and I don't know if it's for the better or worst. Now, it sucks because all I could think of is for me to feel safe and there's no more adventure. I don't try new things and explore more because I'm afraid of getting hurt. Paranoia much , I know. I can't afford losing anyone anymore so I push people away from me. I put myself in the center of a solid wall that limits me and the others which is good in some ways but bad in others. How am I going to recover from that? I can't live like this all my life. I mean, sure you can live like there's no one to worry about but somehow deep down I know it's difficult to not feel some kind of a lost. I know this because I feel it. I miss all the things I used to have. I miss having someone that I can talk to and tell almost everything. Also, I miss having someone who would care for me and tell me things I want to hear. So stuck-up lame I know that but I just can't help but miss these things. After all , I am human so, missing and wanting is a normal behaviour for me. Just that I can't bear losing again. No more D: